Life… we make it up as we go along. We laugh, we cry, we fall, we rise. Sometimes we trust too much and other times too little. Sometimes we let the wrong people in and the right people go. Our hearts are fragile, but we are strong. We make mistakes and we learn lessons and that’s really all we can do. Life has no road map. There’s no clear cut path to where we’re going. We just have to live it. So go ahead and fall in love, fall out of love, dream big, fight for what you believe in, make mistakes, take risks and learn to forgive yourself and others along the way.
It’s been some time since I’ve seen you last. I used to spend most of my time with you, always looking back. We’d reminisce about the good times and the bad. Talk about all we wished we’d had. All the things we should’ve done and the chances we would take if we had another one. From time to time I think about visiting you again.
It’s in the moments when I feel lost. When I have no idea where it is I’m supposed to be going. That’s when your memory creeps up in my mind. The “what ifs” and the “should haves,” they come on strong and I want to bring you back. I want to relive all those moments that have passed.
I catch myself though, before I call. I realize really I don’t need you at all. And it’s not because you ever did anything wrong. It’s simply because there is a reason that you are there and I am here.
You’ve already given me everything you can. You’ve taught me the things I needed to learn. Without you, I would not have met the people that I did. I would not have gone to the places that I’ve gone and I would not have the memories that I hold so dear. But everything I needed from you, I already have. Going back to you won’t do me any good. So forgive me for this, but it’s time to say goodbye. I can not spend my life always looking behind.
The mistakes I’ve made when you were near, I don’t regret. I wouldn’t be the person that I am today had I not made them with you. And for that I am stronger. So thank you for all you’ve given to me. Thank you for all you’ve been.
Deep in my heart, I’ll hold you dear and keep those memories near. Forever you have changed me and that is your greatest gift. I will think of you fondly from time to time because certainly you will always be a part of me.
But yesterday, you do not define me. You hold the power no more. You cannot change me nor can I do so to you. Today is a new day. I can’t let you stand in my way. Our journey together is over now. Our path has been laid to rest. I’m moving on, but as always, I wish you the very best.
All the Best,
The girl no longer letting the past control her future